hii.

your mom.

thats what she said.

hii. im doing an update right now because im mad. just mad. at people. they make me really...frusturated. like i just feel let down alot... i don't want to go into details like im feeling sorry for myself, cause im not. im just upset. whatever. its done. right?

well lately things have been.. o.k. thats it. ok. i wish that they would be better. i wish i could get outt of whatever im in, because its pulling me down. im so emotional all the time. and sometimes i just don't have any emotion at all. i wish God would intervene and just take me. take me away from whateverr it is thats pulling me away. i HATE it. like more than anything. I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY!!! just happy..is that too much to ask for?

and its like i have nothing to not be happy about.. NOTHING. thats whats making it worse to!!  GAAAAAASHHHHHHH!!!!! i can't take it. i just want  to cry  because then i can be happy. if that makes sense.  and then i want to sleep. because that what i alwayys do when im ..whatever i am. guys=pray, pray, pray. i want to be happy. sooo bad.

and my family.. my BIG family [not my small family], well theres been some BIG stuff going on there.. and that needs prayers..thanks. well.. something good? God. He's with me. through it ALL. yes.. and ii  guess from up there ^^... i  dunno. i just want to feel better. its not like im depressed.. because im NOT. i just want to rejoyce in my life..ALOT MORE. yeah thats it.

just pray for me people. thanks.

            --mollyOUT--

Take my voice and let me sing
always, only for my King.
Take my lips and let them be
filled with messages from Thee.
Take my silver and my gold
not a mite would I withhold.
Take my intellect and use
every power as You choose.


Here am I, all of me.
Take my life, it's all for Thee.

i love how NO ONE comments me!

yeah thanks... FRIENDS

all i need to say... is that i need prayers.. that God pulls me back to him.. that i stayed focused.. and that he changes my heart ..please pray. i really do need it.        kthanks.

Can someone please hear me

Don't judge me I pray

I just need a shoulder to cry,
Someone to rely on

Maybe I can finally tell God that I'm hear to stay

Deep down I've been shattered and it breaks my heart

To see everyone in such pieces

God please make me do something

Help me find a release

I know I have pretty much left you again

And I hate myself for it

If there's one thing you can do for
Could you take my heart and restore it?

Hold me in your arms once again

As these tears hit the paper

God please be holding me as I finally
let go and taper

Your my heart's outcry

You know what I long for is ever abounding love

Show me through Your people

I'll know it's from above

I need something to rely on

Something that I can see

Touch my heart with someone else

Do that one thing for me

God I love you to pieces, and I know you don't see it

By the way I have turned you aside

But I really do love you deep, deep inside

Forgive me God for leaving

I don't know what to do

But all I really want Daddy

Is to come crawling back to You. 

that is a poems i found is really close to how im feeling.. so for my prayers ^^thats it.. for the Lord to bring me back to Him.